Thursday, July 17, 2008

i'm too old to have these type of questions...

today marks our official two whole months. as we approach that weird and oh so relationship defining third month, the wierdness is settling in. that i like you but i'm afraid to tell you because its so soon and i don't know whether you're still seeing other people stage.

we have been spending a lot of time togehter.

last thursday (the 10th)night, fridaynight, saturday day, saturday night , sunday day, sunday night, monday night, tuesday morning and wednesday morning and wednesday night. so maybe more than a lot of time. lol.... maybe an excessive amount of time...lol

what my fear is, is that with my track record, i am so bad at that serious relationship conversation. i am the worst at that conversation. he and i talk about everything, from menstral cycles, to crackheads , to Obama, to boogers and i find it weird to bring up the topic of exclusivity.

it's so odd, how that is. the fear of rejection is such a paralyzing obstacle, isn't it? fear that your love won't be recpricated. sigh.

last night vh1 calls and says "hey i'm going to the ihop near your house. is it ok if i come by afterwards?" i say "sure, like what time?" he says "like in an hour, it's late, I know but I just want to lay next to you...smell you...you know" I say "sure." Once he comes over, he says "I had to call you first, to make sure you didn't have any company." I scrunch my face at him and roll my eyes. he continues "you're a grown woman, so you know you could have who ever you wanted over. I had to make sure you didn't have company." FREEZE.

now was that a.) my clue to say you're the only guy I want to have over or b.) his way of saying, I'm a grown man so I could have who ever I want over too.... or am I over analyzing the whole thing.....

it was a perfect time for us to sort of button down the titles and subtitles and what not but my fear that I spoke of earlier caused me to have tightened lips and wonder introspectively.

9 comments:

Sha Boogie said...

No! No! No! Gurl, you got to keep him guessing atleast THREE months-- I know, its hard. But hell, let him smeeeeelllll the pu**y for a while! Keep him guessing, because as soon as that nigga get comfy and thinks the 'chase' is off, you know how that gets...

Young woman on a journey said...

I agree with sha. keep him guessing, but i'm sure he was waiting for you to say he was the only one!

Eb the Celeb said...

Girl... I have no idea... this dating ish is for the birds... I dont know which one of those I would have thought he was trying to say...

I've been learning from my last 2 blogs that we have to not make ourselves so available and this early in the game only except seeing him when its planned in advance and not last minute like this was.

I am struggling with that in my head already because I'm like why Iif I want to see him to why cant I let him come over last minute... why do we have to play all the games...

again... dating is for the birds!

Jane said...

HOLD UP!! HOLD UP!!!
Everyone's being so negative about this!

I like him! And he likes me!
There's no shadey biz going on!LOL
I just think it's funny how he and I can talk about everything but we're both nervous to have the conversation.

Maybe I wasn't clear! LOL

WOW the ladies were quick to attack on this one...that's not at all how I meant it. I apologize if I came off like I wasn't feeling him....lol

Khoney330 said...

I have to say it sounds like you missed your cue. It sounds like he was trying to find out where he stands. Or should I say where he 2 of you stand as a couple.

Keli said...

I agree with khoney. He was asking you, in a very round-a-bout way, if you are seeing other people or if the two of you were exclusive. He didn't want to ask you outright because if you were having other people over, he didn't want to look dumb. Definately sounds like you missed your cue, but since it sounds like you didn't really give him an answer to his "question", it will come up again.

Monie said...

heheheheeh i don't know but i do expect to be updated when this convo occurs lol

jirzygurl said...

i agree with keli and khoney... but i also agree witht he first few comments becasue dating games are wack... i would have just asked because i have no patience! LOL!

Nina said...

Exactly at jirzy, keli, and khoney...