Dear April 14, 2000,
I apologize that you were never given chance. The thought of you, made the selfish, hateful, cruel side of me all too clear. I apologize that I was scared of you. I apologize that what I thought would be said of me, because of you, was greater than the fact that you were mine. I am sad that you will never know me; nor me you.
I can only pray that you hear me and know that you are apart of me. You are in every inhale and exhale. You are never forgotten.
I know one day I will embrace you. I know one day you will be able to understand.
I know that one day you will forgive me, maybe, even one day I will forgive myself.
Maybe you will be able to see that the circumstances caused me to have to make decisions that were not in your best interest.....maybe they were.
I just want to apologize that you were never given a chance.