Today was a bad day. Mr. Wonderful and I broke up again. It’s a good thing though. It’s awful being in love with someone who doesn’t love you back. I don’t think myself esteem will ever rebuild. I feel like I want to crawl under a big rock and die.
I am such a mess right now. But why? Why was I so in love with him? I knew from the beginning, Just read my posts on it… that this relationship was headed in a bad place. I let this happen to me. I think I’m going to let my self really feel what this feels like. I’m no going to hold back tears or say to myself that I don’t care. Because I really do.
I really did.
I swear I’m finished this time.